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I think that this blog will become more of a place for my thoughts and random rants. Today is one that's school and migraine related. Every semester I hit a point where I feel as though I am on the edge of an emotional breakdown. Almost every semester, I do have an emotional breakdown. I am on that edge now, and it is made worse by having a truly awful migraine. This one has aura, and it makes it so that I get stuck on words (I will repeat one word and then lose the rest of the thought). So on top of being stressed out by school, I'm getting embarrassed by my own body/mind.
Sometimes life is hard.
But it is always good.
In Jeremiah, the prophet is talking about something that God says to us.
"For I know the plans that I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future" (Jeremiah 29:11)
Now, this verse is almost over-used, and frequently out of context. If you look at the context, it's God talking to the exiled Israelites, who have been given over to Babylon. Now, if God can say that His plans are for our good in THAT situation, than how much more true is it for us in our personal struggles.
God has a plan for me, and it is a good one.
I just need to continue to trust.

creative block + musings

I guess I'm not sure of what else to call this. I feel as though I either have the most serious case of creative block ever, or just no real motivation.

To those of you I write stories with, I'm sorry. This means that I really can't think of any way to reply to any of you at the moment.

It's a little frustrating, because I really want to be drawing, writing, and designing and creating things. I have ideas, but none of them flow forward past this massive block or lack of motivation. I'm still not sure which.

I should probably just set pencil to paper and let everything kind of flow out into a blob, and then move forward.

In other news, it's been an interesting week (and it's only Tuesday, ack!). I started work yesterday, which was interesting and fun. Individuals with Alzheimer's and other dementias will never fail to cause a unique workplace. I really do enjoy my job already, and I'm scheduled for afternoon today (2-11pm). I should go get ready for work.... I find it sad and frustrating that I'm already looking forward to my day off, and I've only worked one day. Silly, neh?

God has been acting in my life again (He always is at work in my life, but I guess I'm seeing it more clearly right now), which is good, but uncomfortable at the moment. It's made home life a little interesting, and I'm feeling vaguely depressed, which is making me feel even more down on myself (unhealthy spiral, I don't suggest it). Instead of reacting in those ways, I need to embrace God's new mercies every morning and rely on His grace every moment.

If you are struggling with something, and need to rely on God's grace, I would suggest reading Romans 5, and Ephesians 2. They are what I'm working through right now, and I would love if you would join me. If you want, I'll even write my thoughts about it on here. Those would be some true "thoughts to selah".... (teehee~) ^_^#