Lyric help?

I've got this clip of a lyric stuck in my head, but I don't know what song it's from. It goes kind of like:

Don't give up on me
I'm not yet dead


And I have no idea what it's from!!!! It's driving me crazy! Help please!!!!

Amara!

I finally brought her home! It was an interesting saga, actually. We got out to Grandpa's house, and the silly thing wouldn't start. Turned out the the battery was flatlining, so Grandpa(being the mad mechanic that he is) hooked her up to life support(a battery charger). We went out to lunch, came back, and started her up! Started with no problem and there's only been a slight glitch since! Her tires were in DIRE need of some filling. The front right tire registered with NO tire pressure.

For those of you who have not driven a car with a (for all purposes) flat tire, it's weird!!! Everything they told you in Driver's Ed about flat tires is true. They pull your car towards the flat. It's actually almost funny!
^_^

So I got to drive her to the Chiropractor, and then home, and now she's out front!
*bouncebouncebounce*
I'm so happy! My Amara is home!!!!

Exciting news (for me, at least!)

I just went in and got my license today! I'm bringing Amara home tomorrow!

Oh, sorry....
^_^#
Amara is my car, a red ford taurus. She's my third baby (#1: my guitar #2: my laptop)! I'm so excited, because I can finally bring her home, and I'm going to be driving her without any passengers!!!!
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Yes, for those of you who do and don't know me, I am entirely geeked.
^_^

Yes, I am thoroughly excited....Mom was saying that all of a sudden (I was driving today to and from the S.o.S.'s office), I'm driving better than I ever have before. Weird, huh? It's great!

A message through lyrics--selah, please.

Look at all the lonely hearts
Shivering out in the dark
Hiding from the truth
Cover up the proof
Demons that I’ve tried to hide
Imprison me in my own lies
And all that I can do is cover up the proof
Don’t be afraid to…

Stand up!
Stand up if you’re broken
Stand up!
Stand up if you feel ashamed
You are not alone when you hurt this way
Stand up!
Stand up if you need love
Stand up!
This is not judgment day
You don’t have to hide
There’s no need to run
Everything'll be okay

Secrets got me torn apart
Trying to destroy my heart
But I can see the light
It’s cutting through the night
Don’t run away
Don’t run away
Don’t be afraid to…

Stand up!
Stand up if you’re broken
Stand up!
Stand up if you feel ashamed
You are not alone when you hurt this way
Stand up!
Stand up if you need love
Stand up!
This is not judgment day
You don’t have to hide
There’s no need to run
Everything'll be okay

You say You love me
That’s all I’ll ever need
If You say I’m good enough
That’s good enough for me

Stand up!
Stand up if you’re broken
Stand up!
Stand up if you feel ashamed
You are not alone when you hurt this way
Stand up!
Stand up if you need love
Stand up!
This is not judgment day
You don’t have to hide
There’s no need to run
Everything'll be okay

Stand up!
Help me, I'm lonely
Stand up!
Stand up if you're broken
Stand up!
It is not judgment day

Stand Up, Fireflight(Unbreakable)


Sometimes I feel so cold
Like I'm waiting around all by myself
Loneliness gets so old
I'm in the lost and found sitting on the shelf
Been stuck for way too long
I hear Your voice
You're who I'm counting on

Oh, tell me You're here
That You will watch over me
Forever
Oh, take hold of my heart
Show me You'll love me
Forever
Forever

I know that You can tell
When I start to let my hope fade away
I need to catch myself
Open my ears to hear You calling my name
Been fighting way too long
I hear Your voice
You had me all along

Oh, tell me You're here
That You will watch over me
Forever
Oh, take hold of my heart
Show me You'll love me
Forever
Forever

When I'm starting to drown
You jump in to save me
When my world's upside down
Your hands, they shake me and wake me

Oh, tell me You're here
That You will watch over me
Forever
Oh, take hold of my heart
Show me You'll love me
Forever
Oh, tell me You're here
That You will watch over me
Forever
Oh, take hold of my heart
Show me You'll love me
Forever
Forever

Forever!


Forever, Fireflight(Unbreakable)

30 amazing things+Christmas stuffs+some news

They are called Sharpies. "Santa" is amazing. I love sharpies!!!! I got a 30 pack of them for Christmas, and they have already proved themselves amazingly helpful. I wrote in my new calendar with them, so now it's all colorful! <3333
^_^
My Mom and Dad got me a beautiful coat. It's my first 'nice' coat, so I'm really happy. <333 I also got a million amazing socks. <3
^_^
I got two sweaters, they're so nice! I love them.
^_^
Eyeshadow, a clock, new gloves, more socks, lotions, perfume stuffs, gel pens, and candy! I probably got other stuff, too, but I've been feeling not so great the last few hours, so I'm going to go to bed soon.
^_^
I'm on sound in the morning, so I have to be over at CPC nice and early.
^_^*
Not all that thrilled, but I like mixing sound, so I can't complain!
^_^
OH! I passed my road test, and I'm going to go and get my license on Monday. Exciting and scary stuff. Fear the roads, my friends...FEAR THE ROADS!!!!!!!!

<3

Mui importante!!!

Okay, I know that not many people actually read this, but for those of you that do, I need you to pray for this. I have never met the young girl that is mentioned, but I can tell you that she is twelve and that she needs our Heavenly Father's hand in her life.
This was posted on my Youth Group's website by a girl that I've known since her birth, and she and I have spoken about this other young one before.

PLEASE pray!

"Guys, I need your help. I have a friend who is really in need of prayer. She's been cutting herself and her parents haven't been helping. They put her with a counsler who she doesn't feel like she can trust and her parents keep threatening to send her to the pych ward of the hospital if she does it again. And they told her that she'd be sent to Juvenile. She doesn't feel like she can trust pretty much anyone and her sister has been physically and verbally abusing her. Her parents refuse to help her find a counselor she feels she can talk too and her mom has been spreading the word to everyone. She told me she feels like her life doesn't really matter to her parents and she feels alone and scared. Please please PLEASE pray for her. Please. Cuz I'm giving support as I can but I can't do this by myself. And she's a year younger than I am. She said that she just hurts so much inside that it seemed like it was overflowing. She hasn't cut herself lately, but has been wanting to, badly. Just pray for her...Please."

Please also pray that my friend will be guided through this, and that she would draw closer to our Saviour through it.
And please pray that I will know how to advise my dear friend. I've been through this before, and I want to be able to show her a better way of getting through it.

Please, my dear ones, please pray for these things.

Only One Thing

Merry Christmas, dear ones. May God bless you on the day of remembrance of Jesus' birth.

Be a child.

This is an absolutely amazing song that touches my heart every time I hear it. It's on Jason Upton's album Remember. It's actually broken into three songs, but it is all one session. You really have to hear it to understand.

You're my everything
My everything
I can trust You
I can trust in You
I can trust in You
I can trust in You
You're waiting on me
You never leave me, oh God
You aren't gonna leave me
You never leave me, oh God

Trust, Jason Upton (Remember)
The album says that "childhood begins with trust. It's a natural gift given by God. And trust, in it's most developed state, leads to complete dependency. Trust isn't something we say to God. Trust is a way of being; it's the primary way of a child...and it must become the primary way of children of God."

I feel like a newborn
Baby
Tryin' to say Your name
Dada, dada, dada, dadaaaaa
Dada, dada, dada, dada, dadaaaaaaaaaaa......
I feel like a newborn baby
Just tryin' to say Your name
I can feel it coming
I can feel it coming
I can I can
I can hear it coming again
Finally, finally His kids can say it
Dada, dada, dada, dada, dadadaaaaaaa....
Dada, dada, da da, dada dadadaaaaaa.....
Cuz my lips and my tongue
Have been so trained by this world I live in to say so many things
And I want to cry out to You and really believe
That You hear me
Oh it's such a wonderful revelation
Such a wonderful revelation
Such
Such a needed education
Such a needed education
Such a wonderful revelation
Such a needed education
To learn the language
The language of Heaven
Dada, dada, dada, dada, dada....
Dada, dada, dada, dada, dada......
Dada, dada, dada, dada, dada.....
Don't be afraid to cry it out
Don't be afraid to cry out
Daddy, daddy, daddy, daddy, daddy, daddy,
Daddy....
[Daddy, I love You Daddy
That's it that's it just cry it out
[more cries]
Oh, it's a language!
I love you, Daddy
I love you, Daddy
I love you, Daddy
I love you, Daddy
I love you, Daddy
I love you, Daddy
I love you I love you I love you I love you Daddy
I love you, Daddy
I love you, Daddy
I love you, Daddy
[more cries]
[Oh, I love you, Daddy. I love you, Father. I love you Dad!]
[more and more cries]
The language of Heaven
The language
Of Heaven


First Language, Jason Upton (Remember)
"Using the words of Eugene Petersen in his book 'Praying the Psalms', First Language is the primary language of the Psalms. (If all theology in the world could be summarized into one word, I believe that word would be "Daddy"....accompanied by the belief that He hears us.) First Language is the 'language developmental stage' of a child. In this section you hear a baby cry before the song begins. I was reminded at that moment that baby Emma had been trying to say my name all that week. All she could get out of her mouth was the sound you hear me singing. Somehow I just knew she was trying to say my name. Then the day after this recording my wife, Rachel, told me that Emma said "Dada" for the first time. I believe this was more than a coincidence. (In many ways I feel like I am also learning to say 'Dada' for the first time.)

The language of heaven
Is the language of a child
Daddy, come get me
I want You to catch me
Again
Daddy, come get
Me
I want You to catch me again
Daddy, come get me
I want You
To catch me again
I tagged You, You're it!
I tagged You, You're it!
Daddy, play with me!
I want You to touch me again
Oh, the purity the purity
The purity
In me
Every time
You touch me
Touch me, again.


Lullaby, Jason Upton (Remember)
In Lullaby, I could not help thinking about how my son Samuel and I play this game. He says, 'Daddy, come get me", and then he waits for me to chase and catch him. Parents know that one of the greatest gifts to a child is the pure touch of a parent. Kids love to be touched and held.......and so do adults! I realized that night that God is indeed chasing me. I have tried my whole life to chase His Kingdom, hoping to be made righteous, only to find that nothing makes me holy (or whole) like the presence of my Father. Because of that I am trying to learn to slow down long enough for Him to catch me. God could cath me if He wanted; but He likes it when I wait for Him. 'Lullaby' was the thought that came to mind as I listened back to this."

That's what I wanted to let you guys see. I wish you could hear it, but I don't particularly think it would be legal for me to email it to all of you. Ask me about it sometime, and I'll play it for you if I have my laptop with me.

So...the entire point of this was essentially to live the simple life of a child. Be Daddy's little kid and rely entirely on Him. That's the way it's meant to be.

Christmas-ie!

*laughs*
I changed the text last night to make it tastefully Christmas-ie.
XD
I love it. I think it's hilarious.
^_^
Please let me know what you think!
Much love, dear ones.
<3

Tchah!
Okie dokie. So this week is proving fairly interesting. Turns out that it snowed pretty well yesterday, and I'm not going to go for my license before Christmas. I'll be going for it sometime after. Before my birthday, however. Maybe the 27th...I'm not sure.

Last night and today have also proved interesting. I've been having stabbing pain in my abdomen, which has been making the preparation for Christmas stuff more difficult. So if you lovely dear ones would pray for me, I would greatly appreciate it.

<3

Okay, so what I said about my priorities the other day? Forget it. I had them switched up.

#1) get space ready for Charlie. DONE
#2) practice to get driver's license. IN PROGRESS
#3) GET driver's license.
#4) prepare for Christmas stuff
#5) deal with Christmas stuff

However, the preparation for driver stuff isn't as bad as I thought it would be. (Thanks again, Iman! Your encouragement/insight/advice really helped!) Mom and I went out and practiced Sunday night, and I got the stuff mostly down. Darned parallel parking still gets me (I'm spot on about 68% of the time), but rear path backing was ridiculously easy somehow.

Anyway...we finished up Ephesians on Sunday, and I was hit with some pretty cool insight about the part about the armor of God, particularly the part about praying for all of the saints all of the time. It's more like a lifestyle than "Okay, God, I'm praying for the saints now!!! OK, done!" Instead, it's just living in prayer. Going about the day with your heart in the position to give to and receive from God. Try spending a day with your Creator, it's pretty dang awesome. He has a great appreciation for silly little jokes!
^_^
Neat stuff.

Oh, btw, for anyone who reads this and did not already know:

YG IS HAPPENING THIS THURSDAY (Dec.18)!!!

We'll be over in the blue building just east of CPC (the one next door). Same time, same cool stuff, just no Greg.

Well, I hope to see you all soon, and if not (and even if so): I love you loads!

I wish you all a Merry Christmas! And may God bless you in this upcoming year, and for many years to come!

Pretty cool song.

I've been listening to a variety of different music recently, and I ran across this song. It's pretty dang cool, and most of it goes for all of my dear ones. However, I want to make clear to you that as much as I would like to make it all work and be better, I'm not God. I think that the best way that I've seen it put is from my dear friend the Iman.

I wish "I could snap my fingers and things would be different. If everything could changed like that I would be God and that would wrong. I would make a lousy God. I would make people feel better but also people would be dying off left and right. I'm glad I'm not God."

Thank you for putting that out there, my friend. It is so very true.

So here's the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rTMrM2HSyHo&feature=channel

And here are the lyrics:

I'd take a bullet for you
Bleed all my blood out for you
Be taken hostage
Under the knife's edge
Pay all the ransom for you

Do the hard time for ya
On the front lines for ya
Bring on the pain, yeah
The ball and chain, yeah
Be executed for you

I'll cover for you
Take a hit
I'm your alibi
I got your back
I'm livin' every day just to die

Every day I die for you
Throw me in the fire
I'd walk right through
I made a promise, it's an I-O-U
I'd D-I-E 4 Y-O-U
I'd D-I-E 4 Y-O-U
You know I'd D-I-E 4 Y-O-U
You know I'd die for you, die, D-I-E for you
You know I'd D-I-E
I'd die for you!

Give me your paranoia
I'll walk the plank for you
Sous la guillotine, jusqu' a la fin
Willing to suffer for you

Interrogate me for you
Accept my fate for you
Put me in a noose, yeah
Turn the dogs loose, yeah
Take all the hatred for you

I'll cover for you
Take a hit
I'm your alibi
I got your back
I'm livin' every day just to die

Every day I die for you
Throw me in the fire
I'd walk right through
I made a promise, it's an I-O-U
I'd D-I-E 4 Y-O-U
I'd D-I-E 4 Y-O-U
You know I'd D-I-E 4 Y-O-U
You know I'd die for you, die, D-I-E for you
You know I'd D-I-E
I'd die for you!

I'd D-I-E 4 Y-O-U
I'm gonna D-I-E 4 Y-O-U
I'm gonna die, die, die for you
I'd D-I-E 4 Y-O-U

Every day I die for you
Throw me in the fire
I'd walk right through
I made a promise, it's an I-O-U
I'd D-I-E 4 Y-O-U
I'd D-I-E 4 Y-O-U
You know I'd D-I-E 4 Y-O-U
You know I'd die, die, die for you
You know I'd D-I-E
I'd die for you!

D-I-E 4 Y-O-U, written and performed by Family Force 5

Life is weird.

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Wow...that looks cool...I like those things.
So, today was long. I got up at 6, and was going the entire day.
I think that the PSC went pretty well. I did screw something up pretty fantastically, but it worked itself out in the end.
Next priority is getting the Christmas decorations up, and then getting my driver's license.
w00t!

Much love, dear ones!

<3

sick and tired of being sick and tired.

hello, dear ones. i am sick now, as was pretty much expected. so....love you all very much!

The Hoopla went very well, and everything leading up to it (minus fighting against being sick), was entirely worth it.

so...this week is very laid back compared to last week, but it is holiday season, so.....things'll be getting interesting again soon, i'm sure.

Craziest Update

The Drama day went pretty well. My kids were insane, but that's nothing unusual. Mom had to be mean for me, 'cuz I was incapable of doing so myself....
^_^#
I love 'em, but I'm not good at disciplining them.

The rehearsal went well, we got most of the kinks worked out. My Knights are my last loose ends, and there's nothing more I can do about that now. So....should be good!

The EMU yesterday went better than I thought it would. Everything worked out.

The EMU performance today was nice.

Mom is sick, and now I'm starting to catch it.
O_O
This is a bad thing....I don't have time to be sick this week. ai......*rubs at forehead*....yeah....So, I'm tired. And that seems to be my theme of recently. Tired.

^_^

Go read some Ephesians. They're great.

The craziest week.

Heyo real fast,

This is my week from beyond the grave, filled with far too much busy and hopefully some fun thrown in from time to time.

Tuesday- Visit Grandpa and do all of my shopping and preparation for my drama day.
Wednesday- Drama rehearsal @8.50, drama cast party @ 11, drama set-build @noon; chiropractor appointments @2.
Thursday- meeting with the EMU admissions counselor @10.45am; YG@6.20pm
Friday- some performance at EMU, not sure of what time yet.
Saturday- Christmas party at friends' house.
Sunday- Church, potluck, paper bag pageant, and decorating party at the church, starts @9.30, ends at who-knows-when.
Monday- HSC Hoopla! arrive @9 or 9.30 to get the tech running, stay all day. Leave...maybe 9.30 or 10ish to go to dinner? Something like that.

After that, maybe I'll collapse.
I'm kind of struggling with some internal stuff, trying to process it properly, and I'm not sure of what it's outcome will be yet....so...we'll see.



Was up 'til 3am working on prep for the drama day, and was up around 7.45am. Not my idea of enough sleep......yeah. Am tired.

On the upside, I got to see some dear friends today. That was cool. Thanks for helping me work stuff out, Mike!

Much love, kiddos. I'm going to go get some sleep...maybe.

<3

-Lilly

Thoughts?

I was just thinking (scary, huh?)....This was my last day of HSC. I'm too old...too old and too young at the same time. I want to go back to being 16. Then, as that filtered across my thoughts, I thought of how much I could change by just going back to turning 17. I could save some of my dearest friends so much pain, and I could do things differently so that I would be more prepared....

Yeah, late night rambling....probably not that great for me. I should actually go get some sleep.

Much love to my dear ones.

-Lilly

Back

I'm home now, dear ones, and kind of tired. It's bright...well, dark and early Monday morning, and I am getting ready to go. Anyway, I'm home, and looking forward to what I hope will be a good day.

<3

Thanksgiving Vacation Report 1

*grins* I'm alive!

We pushed Dad's car out of the driveway for the second time this vacation and my shoulder is pretty sore.

I'm going to go watch a movie with my brother.

Having fun!

Love you all!!!

Plans.

Guess I should probably actually let my friends know about this...oops.....Well, I'm going out of town, folks. Leaving Saturday, and coming back about eight days later. Headed up north with the family for Thanksgiving. It wasn't actually my idea, and I didn't really want to go, but I'm going anyway. So, I'm not going to be at HSC or church...again.
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Oops.....
The good news is that I'll be home in the afternoon of the 30th, so I'll get to see Beth and Alysha for a little while before they head back to Grace.
8D
That is the happiest little man with big eyes. So there......

Thanks again for the cd, Fain. It's coming with me.

Chords

Well, I just found the chords to a song that I am adoring right now. I'm hoping that my learning the song might impact some friends of mine, because they love it, too, and it seems like they might need some cheering up? I dunno. It's about a half step off, because I don't really know how to detune by half a step. That's something I still have to learn, but I'm gonna work this song out if it kills me.

^_^

It'll be fun!


Kind of...some of the chords aren't quite right, and I'm trying to correct the transitioning.....Hopefully it'll be recognizable......

<3

Song lyrics

I don't actually know who sings this song, or even the name. That's pretty sad, right? Isaac, can you help me out? It's off of the cd you made for me. Track 8? Yeah, track 8.



I was so scared of everything You put in front of me
I've been arching my every part of me
Just to see
See
Why You need me to be
The boy You need me to be

Amazing grace
How sweet the sound
That saves a wretch like me
I once was lost
But now I'm found
Was blind but now I see

I just want to see

I'm the type of person who lets fear drive
I'm the type of guy who lets it drive

'Cuz I'm addicted
I'm needy
I'm lost
Without You

I need You
I need You

Amazing grace
How sweet the sound
That saves a wretch like me
Me...
I once was lost
But now I'm found
Now I'm found....
Was blind but now I see

Amazing grace
Amazing grace
How sweet the sound
How sweet
That saves a wretch like me
It saved a wretch like me!
I once was lost
But now I'm found
Now I'm found!
Was blind but now I see
Amazing grace
You're amazing, You're amazing!
How sweet the sound
That saves a wretch like me
I once was lost
It feels so bad when you're lost
But now I'm found
But I know....
Was blind but now I see


Amazing Because it is, by The Almost

Some more actual selah stuff

So I started reading some in Luke on Monday, because there was a verse there that I was looking for for a friend. Love you, dear! Hope it helped.....even though you don't read this??? *laughs at self* Wow.....

Okay, so I've been reading in Luke 'cuz Jesus says amazing stuff.....a lot.

Luke 11.21/22
"When a strong man, fully armed, guards his own house, his possessions are safe. But when someone stronger attacks and overpowers him, he takes away the armor in which the man trusted and divides up the spoils."
This verse was mentioned somewhere recently, I think it was YG, but I'm not positive. I found it, though!!! That excited me. So, what I got about this one is that God is a strong man that can't be overpowered, and we are his possessions that cannot be taken away from Him. Make sense?

Luke 11.24-26
"When an evil spirit comes out of a man, it goes through arid places seeking rest and does not find it. Then it says, 'I will return to the house I left.' When it arrives, it finds the house swept clean and put in order. Then it goes and takes seven other spirits more wicked than itself, and they go in and live there. And the final condition of that man is worse than the first."
This was the verse that I had gone looking for. We had some rather intense spiritual warfare going on at YG last Th, including that of a demon (or more than one) being sent away. Like I said, rather intense stuff, yeah? I mentioned this verse in a bit of the aftermath, trying to urge our dear sister to fill herself with God, so that this junk doesn't happen, and another friend asked me if I found it to tell him where it was. Coolio. I love this section, because it shows that we do have to be careful and not fly high on that invincible feeling.

We're always vulnerable on our own, we have to rely on God.

Luke 11.34
"Your eye is the lamp of your body. When your eyes are good, your whole body also is full of light. But when they are bad, your body also is full of darkness."
So, you all know me pretty well, most of you know me well enough to know that I love eyes. Eyes are amazing, so when I found this it caught my immediate attention. It reminded me of something that a friend told me about his Mom. He said that she could tell when she wouldn't like a lot of bands by looking at their eyes. If their eyes were clear and bright, she would probably like the band, or at least appreciate their lyrics or something. However, if their eyes were cloudy or dull, or lifeless, she could be pretty positive that she wasn't going to like it. It shows, guys, it shows...it leads into the next verse perfectly.

Luke 11.35
"See to it, then, that the light within you is not darkness."
For those of you who have taken geometry, you know what proofs are. For those of you who haven't, you've probably heard the rest of us complaining about them. Take the above verse, and reverse it.
Good eyes=light inside BECOMES Light inside=good eyes
Bad eyes=darkness inside BECOMES Darkness inside=bad eyes
When you are filled with light, it will show from your eyes. When you are filled with darkness, it will show from your eyes. It's Biblical. Amazing, but not always what we want, right?
That's when this verse ties in.
"See to it, then, that the light within you is not darkness."
Make sense?

Luke 11.36
"Therefore, if your whole body is full of light, and no part of it dark, it will be completely lighted, as when the light of a lamp shines on you."
*looks around, whispers* God is the awesomest lamp, when He shines on you, no part of you is dark!!!! Isn't that great! I don't normally say awesome, but this is AWESOME!!!!!!

Something of some substance.

I'm co-leading a Sunday school class at my church, and we're working through the book of Ephesians. I wasn't able to get to class last week, so I was doing the reading just now, and reading a little ahead of where I think they got to, and I found what I try to live by spelled out. It's really neat, and it has a few little twists that I need to remember and implement in my life.

Ephesians 4.29
Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen.
So swearing is pretty much out of the question, as is gossip. That's pretty cool, 'cuz who likes to get cussed out?

Ephesians 4.31
Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice.
We don't use a lot of those words very often, so I looked them up and translated the dictionary translations. Has anybody else noticed that the dictionary sometimes uses the lamest words? It likes to make us use it.....maybe that's not such a bad thing......^_^
Bitterness- just kind of nastiness, cynicism or ill will.
Rage- violent and uncontrolled anger
Brawling- noisy fighting
Slander- something damaging to another person's reputation.
Malice- desire to cause pain, injury, or distress to another

Ephesians 4.32
Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.
Compassion is being aware of someone else's distress and wanting to make it better, or to "desire to alleviate" it. I love that verse because it gives a way of life that actually makes you pretty joyful.



^_^


Yeah.
I'm happy.
God is so good.
Please put your thoughts out on this one.

A reason for my sleep deprivation.

It's a quarter to three in the morning, and I cannot sleep.

This is starting to get annoying.

I think I'm going to go try again.

<3

Ow....

So, my Dad got annoyed in the car today and slammed the brakes. We all got banged around some, but it looks like I got the worst of it. I had my leg braced against the back of the seat, and my hip and knee got torqued. So, I'm pretty sore right now.
-_-*
Ai....


In other notes, I got to watch a Choi black belt testing today. It went pretty well except for Aunt Liz tearing a muscle in her leg. That was the second "ouch!" moment of the day.
-_-**
Ai......

My Mom and I aren't feeling that great, so we might end up not going to church tomorrow. That would kind of reek severely, but we've got to be up to snuff for Monday.

-_-****
Ai............




**UPDATE**
My leg is fine now. We ended up staying home from church. Aunt Liz is going to be on crutches for a while.
^_^
Woo!?

Weird day...?

I've been having a strange day. It's been really interesting. I don't really have a desire to smile at all, but I'm not depressed. I'm feeling...intense. Serious, quiet, observant, and intense.
.......Interesting.

<3

Concerns.

I'm worried about different friends of mine. It's kind of strange how people can be fine one minute and then be wildly different the next. From just.....bleh, to angry. It was so weird. I was trying to be nice, but it backfired so badly.....that frustrates me. Why? Why did you cut me off? I was trying to be understanding. Oh, well. I love you. I love both of you. I love all of you.


<3

*laughs and shakes head*

Well, Rachel, the bruise around my eye has finally come up. I'm fairly amused by it. My Dad and I were spending time laughing about it a few minutes ago. It hurts a little, though.
^_^
This is hilarious.
Love ya, hon.

The 44th President of the United States.

Well, there it is.

Congratulations to Mister President Barack Obama, may God guide your steps in your presidency, and may He bless you.
Condolences to Mister Senator John McCain, I have worlds of respect for you, sir, and I pray that God will bless you.

God is in control.

So it's election day. Whoo! Uhm...it's slightly annoying to watch the states being called with only 3%. We saw one called for Obama with 1% while McCain had a lead, and one where McCain had a high lead and 69% in but it was not called. It's actually vaguely amusing.

Sorry I haven't written recently. (Ha! Recently....oi.)

My phone is being flaky again, so be warned, dear ones. If you call and I don't answer, leave a message I will do my utmost to get back to you.

I got to go see WALL E today. It was really cute. I loved it. It was sooo sweet. I so suggest going to see it if you can!

Much love, dear ones.

I wonder....

I wonder if people know how often they cut someone off when they're talking.
I wonder how many people know when they're blowing someone off.
I wonder how many people know that they're hurting others.
I wonder if they do it on purpose.
I wonder if they care.

I have a voice, I'm just losing it.

Ha. From a physical sense to an emotional one.

I do have a voice. My throat is dying, so I'm losing it.


However, emotionally, I feel like I have a voice, but no one hears it. Why do I feel so ignored? I know that people are paying attention to me, but I feel so ignored!
-_-*
I'm being absolutely ridiculous this week, but I'm trying to let all of these emotions out before I regain my senses.

I don't want to become an angry person.

tv. and other stuff.

TV is incredibly mind numbing. It's actually somewhat nice. Brav bravo to it.

I'm just free-associating at this point. Be warned, my friends.

Shoot....I forgot what I was going to say. Oh! That was it.

I'm really hoping to be able to make it to YG tomorrow night. I've been trying to contact some people to ask them to write letters of recommendation for me, but so far I've only been able to leave messages. It's making me nervous, because Mom said I wouldn't be able to go if I didn't get a hold of these dear people. I would really, desperately, like to go to YG. However, if I am unable to, I will see many of the same friends at the ELD.
-_-*
I really wanna go to YG. Pardon my whining, please.

So...I should go to bed moderately early tonight so I can be alert tomorrow.

Huhm....okie dokie.

By the way, all of you are A and B the C of D. Remember that. Much love. Much, much, much love.

Life.

Well, I'm finding that my Mom is the absolute glue of my family. If it wasn't for her, we would have fallen apart long ago. She and I were talking yesterday, and I probably would have given up on a lot of things if it wasn't for her. I'm on her team, and if only for her and the kids, I'll make sure that we hang on.

Life is rough. God is good. Period.

Discoveries

#1) IM is fun and actually somewhat easier than email.
#2) Singing to Todd Agnew in the car is fun. (If you've never heard any of his music, I highly encourage you to find some. He's amazing.)
#3) We As Human's "Fly" still is one of my favorite songs
#4) Willet's "Wineskin" is another one of my favorite songs.
#5) Fighting orcs with a friend is a great way to end the day.

That's pretty much it. Thanks for making my night, Angie. I love you. *gives massive hug*

rough day

It's been a weird day. I've felt like crying several times, and only for a good reason a few of those. It's been dumb. Wow....if we're supposed to leave at 8, we should really get to bed......

-_-*

Oh, well.

I need some hugs, and for people to not yell at me.

^_^

And yet, God is so cool.

YG

I go to an amazing youth group. I love our kids, and most of my friends come to the same group. I recently got inducted to the TOHTTLES, so I'm a leader of the group. (Not the leader, a leader.) I've been playing my guitar to help lead worship for the last....month? That's been fun, especially since I don't know a few crucial cords. Such as F and B.

^_^#

Oh, well.

It's been difficult for me at YG recently. Quite frankly, none of my closest friends have been noticing that I need a hug unless I go up to them and ask for one. The only person who has just been coming up to me and giving me hugs has been Jon. Between he and my family and the occasional hugs that the others give me, I'm managing to stay sane. I've been feeling like I'm caving in on myself, but I'll pull it together. I'll be fine.

Psalm 121.1/2

1I look the mountains, where does my help come from?2My help comes from the Lord, the maker of the heavens and the earth!

I need to take that to heart.

^_^

Yeah. I'll be fine.

Slightly frantic chaos?

For those of you who didn't know, Wednesday evenings are normally slight chaos in my house. My family usually eats a late dinner, sometime between 7 and 9, or later if I'm supposed to be making it and I forget or am multitasking. Well, on Wednesdays, dinner has to be ready between 5 and 5.40. The reason for this is that the kids (my brother and sister) have Bible club that they go to at 6.25. They leave at 6. Anyone see the issue?

Today, another few wrenches got thrown into the works, just to gum it up a bit. My Mom had to go to the dentist at 2, and she and I had chiropractor appointments at 4. It turns out that my poor Mom has an infection under the crown of one of her teeth. This is not helping my family out much, because the thing really hurts her. Mom has a high pain tolerance, but this has been really rough on her. It's been hurting through any and all of the medicine that she's been taking for it. So, if you all would pray for her, we would greatly appreciate it.

All right, so while my Mom was at the dentist, I was at home with the kids. It was actually a fairly pleasant babysitting day in comparison with most of the others. I appreciated it and had a good time with my siblings.

My Mom and I ran over to the chiropractor, and got back around...hmm...4.40? Something like that, maybe a little later. It might've been closer to 5. I decided that I could wait to start dinner, because I was making mac&cheese and hot dogs. How hard can that be, right? Well, I started the food at 5.25, five minutes later than I meant to. (Oops! ^_^#) The water took much longer than normal to boil, and the food was ready at 6. *insert a frantic Lilly running through the house trying to serve food and get socks and shoes on the kids. (Aaaaaaaagh!!!)*

Eventually, they were out the door, about five minutes before they were supposed to be there.

-_-*

You can only do so much, right?

I ate around 6.40, and then came downstairs to clean my room at 7. I have to have a clear floor because I have a friend that's going to be spending the weekend with me. My room is still a sty, but it'll be done in time. Time being....tomorrow.

-_-*

I really should have thought this through more.....

The things that have been making this day worthwhile:

-The kids were really good

-I got to play my guitar for about two minutes

-I got to talk to one of my best friends on the phone for about 10-15 minutes

-I get to go upstairs and watch tv with my Mom in ten minutes

-God was/is/always will be good. Hallelujah, amen.

^_^

Good morning, good night?

Well, I suppose I've finally joined the ranks of those that I know with blogs at this host. *smiles* I suppose that's not a bad thing. The only bad thing is that I'm supposed to be sleeping at this point.

Uhmm...to explain the name. Selah means to stop and consider. I'm not going to promise that everything I put here is going to be worth the title of the site, but I hope that some of them will be.

Thank you, and I hope to write again soon.