Lyric help?

I've got this clip of a lyric stuck in my head, but I don't know what song it's from. It goes kind of like:

Don't give up on me
I'm not yet dead


And I have no idea what it's from!!!! It's driving me crazy! Help please!!!!

Amara!

I finally brought her home! It was an interesting saga, actually. We got out to Grandpa's house, and the silly thing wouldn't start. Turned out the the battery was flatlining, so Grandpa(being the mad mechanic that he is) hooked her up to life support(a battery charger). We went out to lunch, came back, and started her up! Started with no problem and there's only been a slight glitch since! Her tires were in DIRE need of some filling. The front right tire registered with NO tire pressure.

For those of you who have not driven a car with a (for all purposes) flat tire, it's weird!!! Everything they told you in Driver's Ed about flat tires is true. They pull your car towards the flat. It's actually almost funny!
^_^

So I got to drive her to the Chiropractor, and then home, and now she's out front!
*bouncebouncebounce*
I'm so happy! My Amara is home!!!!

Exciting news (for me, at least!)

I just went in and got my license today! I'm bringing Amara home tomorrow!

Oh, sorry....
^_^#
Amara is my car, a red ford taurus. She's my third baby (#1: my guitar #2: my laptop)! I'm so excited, because I can finally bring her home, and I'm going to be driving her without any passengers!!!!
..........^_^###
Yes, for those of you who do and don't know me, I am entirely geeked.
^_^

Yes, I am thoroughly excited....Mom was saying that all of a sudden (I was driving today to and from the S.o.S.'s office), I'm driving better than I ever have before. Weird, huh? It's great!

A message through lyrics--selah, please.

Look at all the lonely hearts
Shivering out in the dark
Hiding from the truth
Cover up the proof
Demons that I’ve tried to hide
Imprison me in my own lies
And all that I can do is cover up the proof
Don’t be afraid to…

Stand up!
Stand up if you’re broken
Stand up!
Stand up if you feel ashamed
You are not alone when you hurt this way
Stand up!
Stand up if you need love
Stand up!
This is not judgment day
You don’t have to hide
There’s no need to run
Everything'll be okay

Secrets got me torn apart
Trying to destroy my heart
But I can see the light
It’s cutting through the night
Don’t run away
Don’t run away
Don’t be afraid to…

Stand up!
Stand up if you’re broken
Stand up!
Stand up if you feel ashamed
You are not alone when you hurt this way
Stand up!
Stand up if you need love
Stand up!
This is not judgment day
You don’t have to hide
There’s no need to run
Everything'll be okay

You say You love me
That’s all I’ll ever need
If You say I’m good enough
That’s good enough for me

Stand up!
Stand up if you’re broken
Stand up!
Stand up if you feel ashamed
You are not alone when you hurt this way
Stand up!
Stand up if you need love
Stand up!
This is not judgment day
You don’t have to hide
There’s no need to run
Everything'll be okay

Stand up!
Help me, I'm lonely
Stand up!
Stand up if you're broken
Stand up!
It is not judgment day

Stand Up, Fireflight(Unbreakable)


Sometimes I feel so cold
Like I'm waiting around all by myself
Loneliness gets so old
I'm in the lost and found sitting on the shelf
Been stuck for way too long
I hear Your voice
You're who I'm counting on

Oh, tell me You're here
That You will watch over me
Forever
Oh, take hold of my heart
Show me You'll love me
Forever
Forever

I know that You can tell
When I start to let my hope fade away
I need to catch myself
Open my ears to hear You calling my name
Been fighting way too long
I hear Your voice
You had me all along

Oh, tell me You're here
That You will watch over me
Forever
Oh, take hold of my heart
Show me You'll love me
Forever
Forever

When I'm starting to drown
You jump in to save me
When my world's upside down
Your hands, they shake me and wake me

Oh, tell me You're here
That You will watch over me
Forever
Oh, take hold of my heart
Show me You'll love me
Forever
Oh, tell me You're here
That You will watch over me
Forever
Oh, take hold of my heart
Show me You'll love me
Forever
Forever

Forever!


Forever, Fireflight(Unbreakable)

30 amazing things+Christmas stuffs+some news

They are called Sharpies. "Santa" is amazing. I love sharpies!!!! I got a 30 pack of them for Christmas, and they have already proved themselves amazingly helpful. I wrote in my new calendar with them, so now it's all colorful! <3333
^_^
My Mom and Dad got me a beautiful coat. It's my first 'nice' coat, so I'm really happy. <333 I also got a million amazing socks. <3
^_^
I got two sweaters, they're so nice! I love them.
^_^
Eyeshadow, a clock, new gloves, more socks, lotions, perfume stuffs, gel pens, and candy! I probably got other stuff, too, but I've been feeling not so great the last few hours, so I'm going to go to bed soon.
^_^
I'm on sound in the morning, so I have to be over at CPC nice and early.
^_^*
Not all that thrilled, but I like mixing sound, so I can't complain!
^_^
OH! I passed my road test, and I'm going to go and get my license on Monday. Exciting and scary stuff. Fear the roads, my friends...FEAR THE ROADS!!!!!!!!

<3

Mui importante!!!

Okay, I know that not many people actually read this, but for those of you that do, I need you to pray for this. I have never met the young girl that is mentioned, but I can tell you that she is twelve and that she needs our Heavenly Father's hand in her life.
This was posted on my Youth Group's website by a girl that I've known since her birth, and she and I have spoken about this other young one before.

PLEASE pray!

"Guys, I need your help. I have a friend who is really in need of prayer. She's been cutting herself and her parents haven't been helping. They put her with a counsler who she doesn't feel like she can trust and her parents keep threatening to send her to the pych ward of the hospital if she does it again. And they told her that she'd be sent to Juvenile. She doesn't feel like she can trust pretty much anyone and her sister has been physically and verbally abusing her. Her parents refuse to help her find a counselor she feels she can talk too and her mom has been spreading the word to everyone. She told me she feels like her life doesn't really matter to her parents and she feels alone and scared. Please please PLEASE pray for her. Please. Cuz I'm giving support as I can but I can't do this by myself. And she's a year younger than I am. She said that she just hurts so much inside that it seemed like it was overflowing. She hasn't cut herself lately, but has been wanting to, badly. Just pray for her...Please."

Please also pray that my friend will be guided through this, and that she would draw closer to our Saviour through it.
And please pray that I will know how to advise my dear friend. I've been through this before, and I want to be able to show her a better way of getting through it.

Please, my dear ones, please pray for these things.

Only One Thing

Merry Christmas, dear ones. May God bless you on the day of remembrance of Jesus' birth.

Be a child.

This is an absolutely amazing song that touches my heart every time I hear it. It's on Jason Upton's album Remember. It's actually broken into three songs, but it is all one session. You really have to hear it to understand.

You're my everything
My everything
I can trust You
I can trust in You
I can trust in You
I can trust in You
You're waiting on me
You never leave me, oh God
You aren't gonna leave me
You never leave me, oh God

Trust, Jason Upton (Remember)
The album says that "childhood begins with trust. It's a natural gift given by God. And trust, in it's most developed state, leads to complete dependency. Trust isn't something we say to God. Trust is a way of being; it's the primary way of a child...and it must become the primary way of children of God."

I feel like a newborn
Baby
Tryin' to say Your name
Dada, dada, dada, dadaaaaa
Dada, dada, dada, dada, dadaaaaaaaaaaa......
I feel like a newborn baby
Just tryin' to say Your name
I can feel it coming
I can feel it coming
I can I can
I can hear it coming again
Finally, finally His kids can say it
Dada, dada, dada, dada, dadadaaaaaaa....
Dada, dada, da da, dada dadadaaaaaa.....
Cuz my lips and my tongue
Have been so trained by this world I live in to say so many things
And I want to cry out to You and really believe
That You hear me
Oh it's such a wonderful revelation
Such a wonderful revelation
Such
Such a needed education
Such a needed education
Such a wonderful revelation
Such a needed education
To learn the language
The language of Heaven
Dada, dada, dada, dada, dada....
Dada, dada, dada, dada, dada......
Dada, dada, dada, dada, dada.....
Don't be afraid to cry it out
Don't be afraid to cry out
Daddy, daddy, daddy, daddy, daddy, daddy,
Daddy....
[Daddy, I love You Daddy
That's it that's it just cry it out
[more cries]
Oh, it's a language!
I love you, Daddy
I love you, Daddy
I love you, Daddy
I love you, Daddy
I love you, Daddy
I love you, Daddy
I love you I love you I love you I love you Daddy
I love you, Daddy
I love you, Daddy
I love you, Daddy
[more cries]
[Oh, I love you, Daddy. I love you, Father. I love you Dad!]
[more and more cries]
The language of Heaven
The language
Of Heaven


First Language, Jason Upton (Remember)
"Using the words of Eugene Petersen in his book 'Praying the Psalms', First Language is the primary language of the Psalms. (If all theology in the world could be summarized into one word, I believe that word would be "Daddy"....accompanied by the belief that He hears us.) First Language is the 'language developmental stage' of a child. In this section you hear a baby cry before the song begins. I was reminded at that moment that baby Emma had been trying to say my name all that week. All she could get out of her mouth was the sound you hear me singing. Somehow I just knew she was trying to say my name. Then the day after this recording my wife, Rachel, told me that Emma said "Dada" for the first time. I believe this was more than a coincidence. (In many ways I feel like I am also learning to say 'Dada' for the first time.)

The language of heaven
Is the language of a child
Daddy, come get me
I want You to catch me
Again
Daddy, come get
Me
I want You to catch me again
Daddy, come get me
I want You
To catch me again
I tagged You, You're it!
I tagged You, You're it!
Daddy, play with me!
I want You to touch me again
Oh, the purity the purity
The purity
In me
Every time
You touch me
Touch me, again.


Lullaby, Jason Upton (Remember)
In Lullaby, I could not help thinking about how my son Samuel and I play this game. He says, 'Daddy, come get me", and then he waits for me to chase and catch him. Parents know that one of the greatest gifts to a child is the pure touch of a parent. Kids love to be touched and held.......and so do adults! I realized that night that God is indeed chasing me. I have tried my whole life to chase His Kingdom, hoping to be made righteous, only to find that nothing makes me holy (or whole) like the presence of my Father. Because of that I am trying to learn to slow down long enough for Him to catch me. God could cath me if He wanted; but He likes it when I wait for Him. 'Lullaby' was the thought that came to mind as I listened back to this."

That's what I wanted to let you guys see. I wish you could hear it, but I don't particularly think it would be legal for me to email it to all of you. Ask me about it sometime, and I'll play it for you if I have my laptop with me.

So...the entire point of this was essentially to live the simple life of a child. Be Daddy's little kid and rely entirely on Him. That's the way it's meant to be.

Christmas-ie!

*laughs*
I changed the text last night to make it tastefully Christmas-ie.
XD
I love it. I think it's hilarious.
^_^
Please let me know what you think!
Much love, dear ones.
<3

Tchah!
Okie dokie. So this week is proving fairly interesting. Turns out that it snowed pretty well yesterday, and I'm not going to go for my license before Christmas. I'll be going for it sometime after. Before my birthday, however. Maybe the 27th...I'm not sure.

Last night and today have also proved interesting. I've been having stabbing pain in my abdomen, which has been making the preparation for Christmas stuff more difficult. So if you lovely dear ones would pray for me, I would greatly appreciate it.

<3

Okay, so what I said about my priorities the other day? Forget it. I had them switched up.

#1) get space ready for Charlie. DONE
#2) practice to get driver's license. IN PROGRESS
#3) GET driver's license.
#4) prepare for Christmas stuff
#5) deal with Christmas stuff

However, the preparation for driver stuff isn't as bad as I thought it would be. (Thanks again, Iman! Your encouragement/insight/advice really helped!) Mom and I went out and practiced Sunday night, and I got the stuff mostly down. Darned parallel parking still gets me (I'm spot on about 68% of the time), but rear path backing was ridiculously easy somehow.

Anyway...we finished up Ephesians on Sunday, and I was hit with some pretty cool insight about the part about the armor of God, particularly the part about praying for all of the saints all of the time. It's more like a lifestyle than "Okay, God, I'm praying for the saints now!!! OK, done!" Instead, it's just living in prayer. Going about the day with your heart in the position to give to and receive from God. Try spending a day with your Creator, it's pretty dang awesome. He has a great appreciation for silly little jokes!
^_^
Neat stuff.

Oh, btw, for anyone who reads this and did not already know:

YG IS HAPPENING THIS THURSDAY (Dec.18)!!!

We'll be over in the blue building just east of CPC (the one next door). Same time, same cool stuff, just no Greg.

Well, I hope to see you all soon, and if not (and even if so): I love you loads!

I wish you all a Merry Christmas! And may God bless you in this upcoming year, and for many years to come!

Pretty cool song.

I've been listening to a variety of different music recently, and I ran across this song. It's pretty dang cool, and most of it goes for all of my dear ones. However, I want to make clear to you that as much as I would like to make it all work and be better, I'm not God. I think that the best way that I've seen it put is from my dear friend the Iman.

I wish "I could snap my fingers and things would be different. If everything could changed like that I would be God and that would wrong. I would make a lousy God. I would make people feel better but also people would be dying off left and right. I'm glad I'm not God."

Thank you for putting that out there, my friend. It is so very true.

So here's the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rTMrM2HSyHo&feature=channel

And here are the lyrics:

I'd take a bullet for you
Bleed all my blood out for you
Be taken hostage
Under the knife's edge
Pay all the ransom for you

Do the hard time for ya
On the front lines for ya
Bring on the pain, yeah
The ball and chain, yeah
Be executed for you

I'll cover for you
Take a hit
I'm your alibi
I got your back
I'm livin' every day just to die

Every day I die for you
Throw me in the fire
I'd walk right through
I made a promise, it's an I-O-U
I'd D-I-E 4 Y-O-U
I'd D-I-E 4 Y-O-U
You know I'd D-I-E 4 Y-O-U
You know I'd die for you, die, D-I-E for you
You know I'd D-I-E
I'd die for you!

Give me your paranoia
I'll walk the plank for you
Sous la guillotine, jusqu' a la fin
Willing to suffer for you

Interrogate me for you
Accept my fate for you
Put me in a noose, yeah
Turn the dogs loose, yeah
Take all the hatred for you

I'll cover for you
Take a hit
I'm your alibi
I got your back
I'm livin' every day just to die

Every day I die for you
Throw me in the fire
I'd walk right through
I made a promise, it's an I-O-U
I'd D-I-E 4 Y-O-U
I'd D-I-E 4 Y-O-U
You know I'd D-I-E 4 Y-O-U
You know I'd die for you, die, D-I-E for you
You know I'd D-I-E
I'd die for you!

I'd D-I-E 4 Y-O-U
I'm gonna D-I-E 4 Y-O-U
I'm gonna die, die, die for you
I'd D-I-E 4 Y-O-U

Every day I die for you
Throw me in the fire
I'd walk right through
I made a promise, it's an I-O-U
I'd D-I-E 4 Y-O-U
I'd D-I-E 4 Y-O-U
You know I'd D-I-E 4 Y-O-U
You know I'd die, die, die for you
You know I'd D-I-E
I'd die for you!

D-I-E 4 Y-O-U, written and performed by Family Force 5

Life is weird.

|{}|{}|{}|{}|{}|{}|{}|{}|{}|{}|{}|{}|{}|{}|{}|{}|{}|
Wow...that looks cool...I like those things.
So, today was long. I got up at 6, and was going the entire day.
I think that the PSC went pretty well. I did screw something up pretty fantastically, but it worked itself out in the end.
Next priority is getting the Christmas decorations up, and then getting my driver's license.
w00t!

Much love, dear ones!

<3

sick and tired of being sick and tired.

hello, dear ones. i am sick now, as was pretty much expected. so....love you all very much!

The Hoopla went very well, and everything leading up to it (minus fighting against being sick), was entirely worth it.

so...this week is very laid back compared to last week, but it is holiday season, so.....things'll be getting interesting again soon, i'm sure.

Craziest Update

The Drama day went pretty well. My kids were insane, but that's nothing unusual. Mom had to be mean for me, 'cuz I was incapable of doing so myself....
^_^#
I love 'em, but I'm not good at disciplining them.

The rehearsal went well, we got most of the kinks worked out. My Knights are my last loose ends, and there's nothing more I can do about that now. So....should be good!

The EMU yesterday went better than I thought it would. Everything worked out.

The EMU performance today was nice.

Mom is sick, and now I'm starting to catch it.
O_O
This is a bad thing....I don't have time to be sick this week. ai......*rubs at forehead*....yeah....So, I'm tired. And that seems to be my theme of recently. Tired.

^_^

Go read some Ephesians. They're great.

The craziest week.

Heyo real fast,

This is my week from beyond the grave, filled with far too much busy and hopefully some fun thrown in from time to time.

Tuesday- Visit Grandpa and do all of my shopping and preparation for my drama day.
Wednesday- Drama rehearsal @8.50, drama cast party @ 11, drama set-build @noon; chiropractor appointments @2.
Thursday- meeting with the EMU admissions counselor @10.45am; YG@6.20pm
Friday- some performance at EMU, not sure of what time yet.
Saturday- Christmas party at friends' house.
Sunday- Church, potluck, paper bag pageant, and decorating party at the church, starts @9.30, ends at who-knows-when.
Monday- HSC Hoopla! arrive @9 or 9.30 to get the tech running, stay all day. Leave...maybe 9.30 or 10ish to go to dinner? Something like that.

After that, maybe I'll collapse.
I'm kind of struggling with some internal stuff, trying to process it properly, and I'm not sure of what it's outcome will be yet....so...we'll see.



Was up 'til 3am working on prep for the drama day, and was up around 7.45am. Not my idea of enough sleep......yeah. Am tired.

On the upside, I got to see some dear friends today. That was cool. Thanks for helping me work stuff out, Mike!

Much love, kiddos. I'm going to go get some sleep...maybe.

<3

-Lilly

Thoughts?

I was just thinking (scary, huh?)....This was my last day of HSC. I'm too old...too old and too young at the same time. I want to go back to being 16. Then, as that filtered across my thoughts, I thought of how much I could change by just going back to turning 17. I could save some of my dearest friends so much pain, and I could do things differently so that I would be more prepared....

Yeah, late night rambling....probably not that great for me. I should actually go get some sleep.

Much love to my dear ones.

-Lilly

Back

I'm home now, dear ones, and kind of tired. It's bright...well, dark and early Monday morning, and I am getting ready to go. Anyway, I'm home, and looking forward to what I hope will be a good day.

<3