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I think that this blog will become more of a place for my thoughts and random rants. Today is one that's school and migraine related. Every semester I hit a point where I feel as though I am on the edge of an emotional breakdown. Almost every semester, I do have an emotional breakdown. I am on that edge now, and it is made worse by having a truly awful migraine. This one has aura, and it makes it so that I get stuck on words (I will repeat one word and then lose the rest of the thought). So on top of being stressed out by school, I'm getting embarrassed by my own body/mind.
Sometimes life is hard.
But it is always good.
In Jeremiah, the prophet is talking about something that God says to us.
"For I know the plans that I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future" (Jeremiah 29:11)
Now, this verse is almost over-used, and frequently out of context. If you look at the context, it's God talking to the exiled Israelites, who have been given over to Babylon. Now, if God can say that His plans are for our good in THAT situation, than how much more true is it for us in our personal struggles.
God has a plan for me, and it is a good one.
I just need to continue to trust.

Pain medications?

Wow... so it's been almost a year since I posted last. I'm sorry? I could give excuses, but that's not really worth the time or energy and I don't think anyone really wants to read that.

So a week ago today I had all four of my wisdom teeth removed. For 3 weeks leading up to that, I had a constant migraine. My theory for this is that the roots of the wisdom teeth, combined with the pressure, and the fact that they were trying to move they were pressing on the nearest cranial nerves (probably the trigeminal nerve and/or the auditory nerve) and causing the migraines. This, however, meant that I was constantly taking some sort of pain medication-- the most common of these being percocet. -_-# This on its own is no fun.
Then came the wisdom teeth removal-- and then vicodin. Now I am trying to wean myself off of the vicodin.

This sucks.

I am coming out of four weeks of narcotic use, and trying to stop that use, even somewhat gently, is no fun.

Headache, dizziness, sweaty... and to be honest? Temperamental.

Sorry for whining.

I'm looking for prayer, but also maybe for advice? I don't know if anyone who reads this has experience with this sort of thing, but tips for easing the symptoms of mild narcotic withdrawal is something I'd sure love to hear.

That Migraine Feel--

When the expert you're going to for help with your complicated migraine doesn't understand the up-to-date studies about migraines. Also-- that migraine feel when the expert you're going to for help with your migraines tries to tell you that the non-pain symptoms you're having aren't really migraine, they're just "migraine-related dizziness".
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*facepalm*